I’m not so sure there is a “true self”. Every now and then I’ll find something I wrote five or ten years ago, and that guy comes off as painfully unfunny, desperate for attention, or maybe a little off his rocker. But each era is strange and “unlike me” in a different way.
If anyone were to see or hear me without my superego, they would think me mad. And I DO know this for a fact, as it has happened many times. So many hospitals….
Anyway, now I stay curled up in my comfy superego, like a nautilus shell of metaperception.
I had a moment of realisation today. There are a few people from ten or more years ago who I avoid because the person they knew back then isn’t the person I am now, and I don’t want them treating me like that person.
But what if these people are also avoiding me for exactly the same reasons? What if they have also changed, and assume I will think they are the same person I knew ten years ago? What if the people we are now would be great friends, but we will never know because we are too busy avoiding each other thinking that we have changed but the other person hasn’t?
Are you everything you are purposely? Or are some intricacies of your personalities accidentally showing of some authenticity- some person you might not mean to be; some reaction to reality and not some person’s expectations of relations between you and some person who isn’t you?
August 30, 2011
That’s what the voices in my head are for.
August 30, 2011
Sometimes I have this awkward moment when I meet old friends and can’t remember who I ‘was’ when I last knew them.
Also I spend a lot of time trying to figure out who people think I am, so that I can compensate.
Some days I go to work and don’t feel like being anyone at all, which people tend to interpret as me being ‘depressed’.
August 30, 2011
Sometimes its just fun to be different…
August 30, 2011
Found a Poem.
in my head
this awkward moment
remember who I ‘was’
Some days
sometimes
August 30, 2011
hehehe
August 30, 2011
I’m not so sure there is a “true self”. Every now and then I’ll find something I wrote five or ten years ago, and that guy comes off as painfully unfunny, desperate for attention, or maybe a little off his rocker. But each era is strange and “unlike me” in a different way.
August 30, 2011
If I met me would I like myself?
August 30, 2011
Freud called this emulating-other-people’s-impression-of-me the “superego.” Superego translates to “above the self” in Latin.
If you turn it off in a social setting, you might be in trouble… just like Girl here.
August 31, 2011
I think my superego is the only ego I have.
Or maybe my id is my true identity, which would be funny because id is spelled like ID.
August 31, 2011
This seems to be Girl’s week for regretting being so much smarter than everybody. Don’t feel bad, Girl… a self-examined life is a good life.
August 31, 2011
Meow! I’m a cat!
August 31, 2011
Oh man. Is it just me or has it been a really long time since we’ve seen Boy?
August 31, 2011
All the world’s a stage, and all the men and women merely players.
September 1, 2011
I’d never want to belong to a club that would have someone like me as a member.
September 1, 2011
Why am I annoyed when someone quotes Groucho Marx without citing him, but not when someone quotes Shakespeare?
September 1, 2011
At least we have the internet, where there’s no need to distort or falsify who you really are.
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September 1, 2011
Haha..right. Talk about splitting personalities…
September 2, 2011
David, she is not quoting Shakespeare… she is quoting me!
September 3, 2011
If anyone were to see or hear me without my superego, they would think me mad. And I DO know this for a fact, as it has happened many times. So many hospitals….
Anyway, now I stay curled up in my comfy superego, like a nautilus shell of metaperception.
September 12, 2011
I had a moment of realisation today. There are a few people from ten or more years ago who I avoid because the person they knew back then isn’t the person I am now, and I don’t want them treating me like that person.
But what if these people are also avoiding me for exactly the same reasons? What if they have also changed, and assume I will think they are the same person I knew ten years ago? What if the people we are now would be great friends, but we will never know because we are too busy avoiding each other thinking that we have changed but the other person hasn’t?
January 11, 2012
when i see someone i haven’t seen in a while i wonder if i have to apologise for something
January 22, 2012
Are you everything you are purposely? Or are some intricacies of your personalities accidentally showing of some authenticity- some person you might not mean to be; some reaction to reality and not some person’s expectations of relations between you and some person who isn’t you?
December 8, 2012
@Zack – I thought girl’s ‘uh-oh’ was because suddenly she doesn’t have anyone around her, so no persona at all.